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Well, I really don’t feel much like posting about the agility trial today…but I’m going to anyway. It was rainy and windy pretty much the whole drive to the trial this morning. Rogue wasn’t very thrilled about even going anywhere this morning. It was definitely one of the mornings that makes you question your sanity for paying money to get up so early and then go run around a course in bad weather.

Rogue was stressed right away, which drops my confidence and mood. It’s one of the things that I would like to fix most about myself. To date though, it’s not something that I have had success changing. Ughhh! Poor Rogue is not only hampered by her own temperment, but by me too We walked around the site for quite a while and we both started to relax. She even got to the point where she was doing the practice jump with a group of kids closeby watching. I thought maybe things were turning around. In the past, if she could keep focus and do the practice jump, we’ve been ok. Well, today it wasn’t. She did come off the start line, but only did the first jump. That was all she could do today.

I’m overwhelmed, I don’t know how else to explain it. I spin and spin in my head about ways to help Rogue overcome her anxieties. I even dream about it at night. Sometimes it really feels like I’ve taken on more than I can handle with Rogue. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to help her. Then I worry that her training is taking so much out of me that it isn’t fair to my other dogs. Today is one of those days.